Friday, November 2, 2012

Which favors of your lord would you deny?

I was in the bus.I sat alone near the window.It was after my counselling test. I am not really satisfied with my performance. The negative charges surged in me. I just ate half plate of 18 dollars lunch. I was very grumpy though my stomach was full.My heart and mind was tormenting each other; sad and mad at the same time.

I looked at the outside of the bus.Traffic lights, pedestrians, cars, such a busy Friday. I still couldn't accept the fact what's done is done.Long pause..and my mind had loose the battle. My heart start to pound me with tonnes of answers to my problems. I think to much that is my problem. I worry to much that is my problem. I aim to high that is my uttermost terrible horrible problem.

God has granted my dua last time. I managed to study here and enrolled in the course of my choice. I get scholarship and I don't need to pay the money back.Why I become so ungrateful and become grumpy over a very small matter that would not determine either I will be going to Jannah or not?

I need to revise my aim, my ghayah in this life. I drifted away every now and then.Now, I am happy again.I know God will give whatever is the best for me. I trust all in Him.All that is mine is not really mind.Shame on me, I cried over of what's not even mine at all!

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Soalan cepumas

Terkesima seketika bila kawan tanya,
 "So,you don't have the right to choose your religion?That's unfair". Saya tanya dia,
"So, do you have religion".Dia jawab,"No, I believe in science".Saya pon start la cakap mana yg penah tgk kt YouTube."Well, we have this book and basically,it is a scientific book. It was written more that 1400 years ago.Where at that time no ultrasound technology yet and this book tells how baby form in a womb"

_to be edited later_

Monday, October 22, 2012

I miss everyone who had ever made my day

Miss those days when everything is alright.Miss those reassuring words.Miss those caring people.Miss those company I use to have.Miss those lively days..

Sunday, October 7, 2012

I am a pharmacy student,what do I do?

Monday- Dosage Form Design lecture (2hours)
I still go to the lecture even if there are recordings and I am proud of myself! Monday is a happy day.I can have lunch at home.Smile.

Tuesday- Dosage Form Design tutorial (50 minutes) fortnightly
            - Pharmacology and Pathophysiology tutorial (50 minutes)
            - Pharmacology and Pathophysiology lecture (2hours)

I'm preparing for tutorials like preparing for exam,my friend once said.Overall, the day was long.I always grab some sushi or kebab for lunch.No lunchbox anymore this year,sadly.

Wednesday- Pharmacy Practice lecture (1 hour)
                  Dosage Form Design Practical (3 hours) once in 3 weeks 
                  >>very nice free time indeed~

I was chilling in most of the practicals.I am loving lab a lottt!

Thursday- Pharmacology and Pathophysiology lecture (2 hour)
             - Pharmacy Practice lecture (1 hour)
              -Pharmacy Practice lecture (1 hour)
Huge gap (3 hours of nothing to do--haha,seriously nothing?) between the 1 hour lecture makes me surrender and listen to the recording instead.opps..(and hungry too)


Chilling day! 9-11 practical. (Most dreaded!!!) -chance to give advice to the 'patient'


Saturday, October 6, 2012


by TS~

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end 


Faster than the wind

Passionate as sin, ended so suddenly

Loving him is like trying to change your mind

Once you're already flying through the free fall

Like the colors in autumn

So bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I'd never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've

 never met

But loving him was red

Loving him was red

Thursday, October 4, 2012

jiwa malas stadi

Why they held Christmas pageant when I have test next week? Oh wanted to enjoy the atmosphere and sculpture and cute kids so so much.

oh ,what i saw today is the showcase~aha..ade chance

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Your Busi-ness is killing me~

I don't care (mind?) when people around me gets busy.I respect them.I try to help if I can, if I am near.
Certain people,when they are busy,they are killing me,like arsenic,really.or maybe they are just like opiod to me,I am addicted.However, I do understand.They miss me too.Kikiki..(perasan)


Spring break!

It is spring break and it is very sunny.How niceeee~but i don't tan under then sun,i,maybe it is the best to keep away from Sun~

Holiday is the best when you have super giant massive hectic week before and then a 2 weeks of not-doing-nothing~How nice.I can cook whatever I want,how long I want,how often I want.I can tidy up things,organize/redecorate my room with all the time I have.I can see the beach, soak under the sun, breath the spring scent.

It was lovely to watch the sun set down. Subhanallah, so beautiful.We even had picnic while watching the sunset. =D
We went to Hallet Cove beach (which I think it is the suburb called Seacliff, not really Hallet Cove)

Look at the new moon~subhanallah! The horizon,the night sky..all those experience really make it worth all the hard work of studying and practicing SPI. =P

The girls checking on the photos.

Sun said goodbye for the day~

Monday, September 10, 2012

You never fit in ! PART 1

I realize time passes by so so fast.It has been almost two years since I first step in this beautiful city of Adelaide.The city of churches.I called this city a mix of Kangar,Perlis,Malaysia and Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia. Peaceful yet so exciting.

I love uni and I wish I am in uni FOREVER (except I want to PASS,of course). maybe I just love the way the education system works here.Whoever design this type of education system are truly incredibly awesome people.

Well, my uni life is quite what I wanted, always my dream.I like it when there is no compulsory orientation.I hate orientation.In high school, they made us attended orientations every single year.Even in my senior year!Never mind,leave the horrible years behind and live the balance life to the fullest! Well, here there was actually orientation but mostly guides about locals and stuff and there's a trip (just pay some amount,and you get to enjoy yourself but i was busy searching for a house back then =P ).Orientation week that I knew before this was a pretty boring and dumb week.We got lock in a building or a room,listening  for ever-tiring motivational talk,get outside and play outdoors of what I hate.Well, different people prefer diff sorts of outdoor activities.It can be anything from gardening, bowling,swimming or hiking.Why narrow the space to just playing netball, basketball,etc.

Uni is much cooler when attendance to the lectures are not compulsory and lecture recordings are provided.It is not that I disregard the importance of a direct communication, but it actually teaches the students to be responsible of their job as a students.We are treated as adults.We made decisions and rules for ourselves.It's not a paternal relationship between lecturers and students.We are just like equal.We can voice out what we want and what we don't. We can change the way we were taught to which we prefer and like most.That is crazy when I first experience it. I remembered in high school when I was so outspoken and tried to change how I was taught. I guess most of my friends thought that I am so over the limit and not being a humble student.I thought they were right,but now I know what I did was just normal and right.It is just not the culture as they are in Adelaide,Australia. = )

to be continue..

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Inferiority Complex!

I can't write.So, I 'talk'.

It was weird when I was back in Malaysia last summer.I felt really weird.When people said, "Hey,you are one lucky girl to have a chance to study oversea!",I just responded,"Yeah..".But deep deep inside me I think I am no better than my friends who study locally.I miss a lot of experience.A lot of talent remain hidden and I remain normal,plain, geeky uni student.

Here,we couldn't even join a student association.Because those clubs always mean for PARTY and PUB CRAWL and BARBIE~fun,that's what they are at least 50% are about.

I feel so inferior when I met my friends who study 'Deeniyah'.ME?I couldn't even remember a single thing I learn  in school.I know things but I just can't 'merge' in it.My Arabic knowledge disappear in thin air!That is soooooo sad~

And me,again,feel so inferior with my friends who still wear 'tudung labuh' which I am not anymore.It is just not me,I hate faking myself.And I hate the fact that people in my home country are not as open-minded as Aussie(yeah,you guys are the best mate!).People still judge the book by its cover.>> I don't get it why I can't wear slack pants and t-shirt to Masjid.Why I have to speak so quietly in front of 'religious men' and speak normally with plain, normal guy in the street.I don't get it why we have to treat people differently.

I think I choose to be a 'not-so-religiously-dressed-girl'. But I am still covering my 'aurah. I remembered my religious teacher once said to me that it is so annoyingly sad to see girls wearing stylish hijab cause she said hijab is about covering not showing.Well,we have a different opinion here missy.So sorry.(secondary school is the second 'bad experience' period after INTEC..uni is the best =)
(don't get me wrong my high school mates ^^ )

Inferiority remain so complex again.With whole bunch of things going around,I'm just a plain girl who need to study hard to maintain the scholarship and getting a degree here.People said we are clever students?Wrong, we are not. We don't even care about what's going on in Malaysia(some ppl) .So what's the point being academically clever.But I still care though.Love you guys. ^^

p/s: I don't really make sense I

Party- dance to the music?I never went to any so I don't know.haha
Pub Crawl- going to club?clubbing?...maybe.haha

Friday, May 4, 2012

Eating Disorder

It has come to the time where everybody will eat and eat and eat.yeap!our part time job~when the locals were busy with their part time work as barista, cashier,pharmacy assistant, cook and baby sitter,we sit tight in our house with heater on on the colder night.We sit tight with our favourite laksa,tomyam or 'kanji' that we cook ourselves and STUDY!~

Yeap, the contract with JPA said that we must not work while study as we are paid to study~fine fine...and me, i did study for an hour or two until my back ache and i feel like eating AGAIN~though i'm full, i  wish i have bigger 'compartment' and rapid food absorption to eat again!

This is the story when tests and quizzes and assignments due strictly next week.I can be bloated to death as oppose of starve to death.So that I am aware that this is a good life but this life isn't permanent.This life isn't meant for this life!And this life is like a movie where it ended when it feels like it's just started.But the story of test and quiz is an episode where the ending is already determined.Known.but haven't being reveal.and yup>>>>>>>>>>i gotta continue studying ^^ cheers for reading my 'merepeking'  and see ya!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

What am I gonna do??

Fuh,what a year!It has been almost a year,I suppose?Well readers,life is good here.How's yours?I am so proud to announce that this blog will come back to life,yeay~ (well,I hope it last long). By the way, I plan to write about Adelaide and starting to post my business entries in the upcoming days.(I am sooo excited!!)

I wanna show off some of the pictures taken with my HTC Desire HD which is soo awesome~lalala..i'm not so into photo capturing but this is way to cool when you snap a picture using mobile phone camera and it turns out to look like one of a DSLR quality..(i'm in high dose of self-esteem this morning) ^___^

Mount Lofty Botanical Garden ,Stirling,SA

Bottle brush tree in front of a house in Klemzig,South Australia.

Spring emerged.Leaves appeared.Blue sky at Mount Lofty Botanical Garden 

Car park?eheh..during late winter

This tree has turn over  new leaves ^^

Mount George jungle in the evening in winter

What am i capturing?lols

Love hiking without pacat.This is Australia forest!

in fern valley,mount lofty botanical garden.technique used:main blasah saje =D

beautiful bushes 

So blue


All praise to Allah,so beautiful!!

Konon nk tunjuk kata besar sgt2 daun nie ^__^

This is sweet.Subhanallah~

Mcm lukisan!!

Suke gambar nie :))))