You never fit in ! PART 1

I realize time passes by so so fast.It has been almost two years since I first step in this beautiful city of Adelaide.The city of churches.I called this city a mix of Kangar,Perlis,Malaysia and Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia. Peaceful yet so exciting.

I love uni and I wish I am in uni FOREVER (except I want to PASS,of course). maybe I just love the way the education system works here.Whoever design this type of education system are truly incredibly awesome people.

Well, my uni life is quite what I wanted, always my dream.I like it when there is no compulsory orientation.I hate orientation.In high school, they made us attended orientations every single year.Even in my senior year!Never mind,leave the horrible years behind and live the balance life to the fullest! Well, here there was actually orientation but mostly guides about locals and stuff and there's a trip (just pay some amount,and you get to enjoy yourself but i was busy searching for a house back then =P ).Orientation week that I knew before this was a pretty boring and dumb week.We got lock in a building or a room,listening  for ever-tiring motivational talk,get outside and play outdoors of what I hate.Well, different people prefer diff sorts of outdoor activities.It can be anything from gardening, bowling,swimming or hiking.Why narrow the space to just playing netball, basketball,etc.

Uni is much cooler when attendance to the lectures are not compulsory and lecture recordings are provided.It is not that I disregard the importance of a direct communication, but it actually teaches the students to be responsible of their job as a students.We are treated as adults.We made decisions and rules for ourselves.It's not a paternal relationship between lecturers and students.We are just like equal.We can voice out what we want and what we don't. We can change the way we were taught to which we prefer and like most.That is crazy when I first experience it. I remembered in high school when I was so outspoken and tried to change how I was taught. I guess most of my friends thought that I am so over the limit and not being a humble student.I thought they were right,but now I know what I did was just normal and right.It is just not the culture as they are in Adelaide,Australia. = )

to be continue..

Inferiority Complex!

I can't write.So, I 'talk'.

It was weird when I was back in Malaysia last summer.I felt really weird.When people said, "Hey,you are one lucky girl to have a chance to study oversea!",I just responded,"Yeah..".But deep deep inside me I think I am no better than my friends who study locally.I miss a lot of experience.A lot of talent remain hidden and I remain normal,plain, geeky uni student.

Here,we couldn't even join a student association.Because those clubs always mean for PARTY and PUB CRAWL and BARBIE~fun,that's what they are at least 50% are about.

I feel so inferior when I met my friends who study 'Deeniyah'.ME?I couldn't even remember a single thing I learn  in school.I know things but I just can't 'merge' in it.My Arabic knowledge disappear in thin air!That is soooooo sad~

And me,again,feel so inferior with my friends who still wear 'tudung labuh' which I am not anymore.It is just not me,I hate faking myself.And I hate the fact that people in my home country are not as open-minded as Aussie(yeah,you guys are the best mate!).People still judge the book by its cover.>> I don't get it why I can't wear slack pants and t-shirt to Masjid.Why I have to speak so quietly in front of 'religious men' and speak normally with plain, normal guy in the street.I don't get it why we have to treat people differently.

I think I choose to be a 'not-so-religiously-dressed-girl'. But I am still covering my 'aurah. I remembered my religious teacher once said to me that it is so annoyingly sad to see girls wearing stylish hijab cause she said hijab is about covering not showing.Well,we have a different opinion here missy.So sorry.(secondary school is the second 'bad experience' period after INTEC..uni is the best =)
(don't get me wrong my high school mates ^^ )

Inferiority remain so complex again.With whole bunch of things going around,I'm just a plain girl who need to study hard to maintain the scholarship and getting a degree here.People said we are clever students?Wrong, we are not. We don't even care about what's going on in Malaysia(some ppl) .So what's the point being academically clever.But I still care though.Love you guys. ^^

p/s: I don't really make sense I know..lol

Note:
Barbie-barbecue
Party- dance to the music?I never went to any so I don't know.haha
Pub Crawl- going to club?clubbing?...maybe.haha

Eating Disorder

It has come to the time where everybody will eat and eat and eat.yeap!our part time job~when the locals were busy with their part time work as barista, cashier,pharmacy assistant, cook and baby sitter,we sit tight in our house with heater on on the colder night.We sit tight with our favourite laksa,tomyam or 'kanji' that we cook ourselves and STUDY!~

Yeap, the contract with JPA said that we must not work while study as we are paid to study~fine fine...and me, i did study for an hour or two until my back ache and i feel like eating AGAIN~though i'm full, i  wish i have bigger 'compartment' and rapid food absorption to eat again!

This is the story when tests and quizzes and assignments due strictly next week.I can be bloated to death as oppose of starve to death.So that I am aware that this is a good life but this life isn't permanent.This life isn't meant for this life!And this life is like a movie where it ended when it feels like it's just started.But the story of test and quiz is an episode where the ending is already determined.Known.but haven't being reveal.and yup>>>>>>>>>>i gotta continue studying ^^ cheers for reading my 'merepeking'  and see ya!

What am I gonna do??

G'day~

Fuh,what a year!It has been almost a year,I suppose?Well readers,life is good here.How's yours?I am so proud to announce that this blog will come back to life,yeay~ (well,I hope it last long). By the way, I plan to write about Adelaide and starting to post my business entries in the upcoming days.(I am sooo excited!!)

I wanna show off some of the pictures taken with my HTC Desire HD which is soo awesome~lalala..i'm not so into photo capturing but this is way to cool when you snap a picture using mobile phone camera and it turns out to look like one of a DSLR quality..(i'm in high dose of self-esteem this morning) ^___^

Mount Lofty Botanical Garden ,Stirling,SA

Bottle brush tree in front of a house in Klemzig,South Australia.

Spring emerged.Leaves appeared.Blue sky at Mount Lofty Botanical Garden 

Car park?eheh..during late winter

This tree has turn over  new leaves ^^

Mount George jungle in the evening in winter

What am i capturing?lols

Love hiking without pacat.This is Australia forest!

in fern valley,mount lofty botanical garden.technique used:main blasah saje =D

beautiful bushes 

So blue

Magnolia~

All praise to Allah,so beautiful!!

Konon nk tunjuk kata besar sgt2 daun nie ^__^

This is sweet.Subhanallah~

Mcm lukisan!!

Suke gambar nie :))))

Ghuraba'

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`


Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever
We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

The Prophet SAW said "Islam began as something strange, and it will return as something strange the way it began. So Tooba for the Strangers"

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`


Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever
We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

The Prophet SAW said "Islam began as something strange, and it will return as something strange the way it began. So Tooba for the Strangers"

Matlamat x akan pernah menghalalkan cara

firstly, I apologize for posting this.I just feel that why not people give a think on it . p/s: bahasa rojak use the least ATP.i dun want to do more thinking. I hv test next week!

Lets put a simple fairytale example as an analogy to this topic.Have you heard the story about Robin Hood?Well, he is an Irish man living in 1300's and is well known for his aim of life (at least I think it is) of helping the poor.Noble man, I should say from what I know. But, he actually robbed from the rich to give it to the poor.Is he noble enough?So, this is it. Good aim never allow us to do bad things.It is just BAD.in mathematical formula:

good+bad = bad
(good)(bad) =bad

Only pure intention and ways will keep the aim pure.

In reality, as I step into university life, things are completely out of my expectation. I thought of having some kind of culture shock (in fact I did for some other reasons), but I'm not. The atmosphere is just awesome. They have got strong bond between each other and see each other as a  Muslim  brother and sister. A lot of nourishing biah which I am so lazy to explain. I once being ask by a senior, "Would you like to join Halaqah?". I was dumb struck. "Ea, normal ke tanya mcm nie?", I monologue.
Long while after that, similar question being asked to me again adding the words "...I know you have your own halaqah but just asking either you wanted to join ". I was like..'what is happening here??im clueless'.

Some basic things that I know are:
1. matlamat yang baik tidak akan menghalalkan cara.Pada saya, cukuplah andai Islam itu sudah disampaikan oleh orang lain kepada orang yang kita nk sampaikan. Walaupun cara berbeza, matlamat adalah sama! Kita patut rasa selesa dah gembira kerana kerja kita diteruskan olehnya.
Analogy: Seorang cikgu tengah mengajar seorang murid.Tiba-tiba datang seorang cikgu lain,nk mengajar benda yang sama kepada murid tersebut.Cikgu itu bertanya kepada murid tue, "nk x cg ajar?"
(i leave it tergantung here.so lazy)...

in a nutshell

Rebutlah keredhaan Allah. Keredhaan Allah bukan terletak kepada banyaknya pelajar yang belajar darinya tetapi keikhlasan menyampaikan ilmu walau sedikit.

2.refer 7 tahap da'wah fardiyah. marhalah 7 without marhalah 1-6 is crap!

Erm~

lots of things to think~semuanyer penting.ok nainah, satu2~