Sayangnya Allah kepada kita tidak semesti memberi bahagia shj..

Liku hidup yang Allah susun kepada kita hakikatnya adalah untuk membuatkan kita lebih mendekatiNya. Allah itu maha penyanyang dah segala penyusunanNya penuh teratur dan berhikmah. Beruntunglah orang yang sabar kerana kesabaran itu hakikatnya sesuatu yang sangat sukar untuk dicapai. Tiada yang dapat menemani dalam menyusuri jalan dakwah dan tarbiyah ini melainkan sepenuh kebergantungan kepada Allah. Hiduplah dalam sirah nabawiyah kerana di dalamnya terdapat 1001 lakaran cerita yang hebat dari generasi yang hebat. Islam itu tinggi dan tiada yang lebih tinggi darinya.

This is my story~

Dulu pernah baca novel mawar berduri karya Fatimah Syarha. Macam to good to be true je jalan cerita dia.Macam sangat perfect.(mengeluh)...

I have to throw this out and away.See, things around me are changing me swiftly. I learn to tolerate a lot of things after school. That changes me. I tolerate with culture.I tolerate with the way people around me are behaving. I tolerate with guys and girls out there...TOLERATE.Thats what I have done ever since.Like my sista, she tolerates to. Shifting schools really makes her a different person. Sometimes, I am worried about her.But I never worried about myself.

TOLERATION was the worst thing to put into action. Once you tolerate with something, it'll change your way of handling things. I tolerate with limits.My limits are always high and I am making sure of that. Suddenly, toleration do trap me. My mum said ,we must not be too harsh to people. We cannot make them understand things in a night. I agree. I encounter with real people now. Ones who are helpless and needing people who understand to explain to them. We must not hate them but to feel sorry for them.

So human am I, am not?Always making mistakes. Mistakes cannot be undone but to be hold to memory and learn from it. I'm wrong for taking that myself are so armored. Indeed the Allah is The Best Protector.

Jom Tulis Banyak2 Sebelum Habis Holiday~

9.30 p.m: sedang menulis SRT...and annoying~~

11.00 p.m: erk...baru satu paragraph?

12.30 a.m : zzzzzz......

1.00 a.m : cuba untuk tulis lg tp tertulis kt sini~

8 a.m : mengadap MATH.....apakah ?

9 a.m: makan n jalan2 sbb boring study~

9.45 a.m: duduk kt meja with annoying BUN2,dinne and little hasma'......owh~bising...

.........mmg x menjadi stadi kt rumah nie.......

Wishlist~

here goes mine:

1.walking in the street of somewhere barefoot

2.staring through the window and see mars with naked eyes

3.flying higher and higher UP into the blue sky (i wish to drive a plane someday)

4.i could be myself

5.fighting with bun2 forever!

6.hearing songs sings by my little b-swift~

This is it, and i should not be upset~

It's Jun and thats mean i am 3 months away from Trial and less that 5 months away for SACE external exam.It is unfair that a very short time will determine those.My future and yet my long-aim ambition. I do not put to much hope for SACE nor I have much trust in myself as the 'inner' me are crashing and colliding like gas particle,so randomly. I try to apply the physics concept. I try to think like Stephen Hawkings, the way he theorized the big bang. The way it has to be logic and always logic.

"There is no truth in illogical things. Everything needs facts.">>that is a wrong principle to carry and hold to the heart.

Abah said that i always think logic and i believe myself could change the world which is in fact those are all by Allah's will.

Not everything needs logic to work out something. Logic is not our god but Allah is. Logic do not made the muslimin win in the Badr War.Logic just do not fit in everything. It is just theorized by human being of which they make others to believe in so much.

So, this is similarly connected in every way of every human life. How powerful we are in this tiny world, how healthy we are and how happy we are do not guaranteed an expected ending.Illogical will always encircle us. Illogical is logical. It is all Allah's will and we have no power to change.

Allah is the Light of the heavens and the earth. The Parable of His Light is as if there were a Niche and within it a Lamp: the Lamp enclosed in Glass: the glass as it were a brilliant star: Lit from a blessed Tree, an Olive, neither of the east nor of the west, whose oil is well-nigh luminous, though fire scarce touched it: Light upon Light! Allah doth guide whom He will to His Light: Allah doth set forth Parables for men: and Allah doth know all things. Surah An-nur :35

should i stop being a straight forward person?

Arguments for:
1.ppl will not change so sudden....(ud'u ila sabili rabbika bil hikmah)
2.they will change but just for a moment and without self-realization
3.not all people are open minded and can absorb good message in a straight forward advice

Arguments against:
1.i should be myself
2.it reflect that u are a bad liar
3.it works for open minded ppl
4.some ppl prefer open conversation that closed one

conclusion:
i should not stop being a straight forward person with a limit to certain group of ppl and situation.