Friday, November 2, 2012

Which favors of your lord would you deny?

I was in the bus.I sat alone near the window.It was after my counselling test. I am not really satisfied with my performance. The negative charges surged in me. I just ate half plate of 18 dollars lunch. I was very grumpy though my stomach was full.My heart and mind was tormenting each other; sad and mad at the same time.

I looked at the outside of the bus.Traffic lights, pedestrians, cars, such a busy Friday. I still couldn't accept the fact what's done is done.Long pause..and my mind had loose the battle. My heart start to pound me with tonnes of answers to my problems. I think to much that is my problem. I worry to much that is my problem. I aim to high that is my uttermost terrible horrible problem.

God has granted my dua last time. I managed to study here and enrolled in the course of my choice. I get scholarship and I don't need to pay the money back.Why I become so ungrateful and become grumpy over a very small matter that would not determine either I will be going to Jannah or not?

I need to revise my aim, my ghayah in this life. I drifted away every now and then.Now, I am happy again.I know God will give whatever is the best for me. I trust all in Him.All that is mine is not really mind.Shame on me, I cried over of what's not even mine at all!

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Soalan cepumas

Terkesima seketika bila kawan tanya,
 "So,you don't have the right to choose your religion?That's unfair". Saya tanya dia,
"So, do you have religion".Dia jawab,"No, I believe in science".Saya pon start la cakap mana yg penah tgk kt YouTube."Well, we have this book and basically,it is a scientific book. It was written more that 1400 years ago.Where at that time no ultrasound technology yet and this book tells how baby form in a womb"

_to be edited later_

Monday, October 22, 2012

I miss everyone who had ever made my day

Miss those days when everything is alright.Miss those reassuring words.Miss those caring people.Miss those company I use to have.Miss those lively days..

Sunday, October 7, 2012

I am a pharmacy student,what do I do?

Monday- Dosage Form Design lecture (2hours)
              
I still go to the lecture even if there are recordings and I am proud of myself! Monday is a happy day.I can have lunch at home.Smile.

Tuesday- Dosage Form Design tutorial (50 minutes) fortnightly
            - Pharmacology and Pathophysiology tutorial (50 minutes)
            - Pharmacology and Pathophysiology lecture (2hours)

I'm preparing for tutorials like preparing for exam,my friend once said.Overall, the day was long.I always grab some sushi or kebab for lunch.No lunchbox anymore this year,sadly.

Wednesday- Pharmacy Practice lecture (1 hour)
                  Dosage Form Design Practical (3 hours) once in 3 weeks 
                  >>very nice free time indeed~

I was chilling in most of the practicals.I am loving lab a lottt!

Thursday- Pharmacology and Pathophysiology lecture (2 hour)
             - Pharmacy Practice lecture (1 hour)
              -Pharmacy Practice lecture (1 hour)
Huge gap (3 hours of nothing to do--haha,seriously nothing?) between the 1 hour lecture makes me surrender and listen to the recording instead.opps..(and hungry too)

Friday 

Chilling day! 9-11 practical. (Most dreaded!!!) -chance to give advice to the 'patient'

WEEKEND!!yay

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Red

by TS~






Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end 

street

Faster than the wind

Passionate as sin, ended so suddenly

Loving him is like trying to change your mind

Once you're already flying through the free fall

Like the colors in autumn

So bright just before they lose it all


Losing him was blue like I'd never known


Missing him was dark grey all alone


Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've

 never met


But loving him was red

Loving him was red

Thursday, October 4, 2012

jiwa malas stadi

Why they held Christmas pageant when I have test next week? Oh wanted to enjoy the atmosphere and sculpture and cute kids so so much.

http://www.cupageant.com.au/when-and-where.htm

oh ,what i saw today is the showcase~aha..ade chance

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Your Busi-ness is killing me~

I don't care (mind?) when people around me gets busy.I respect them.I try to help if I can, if I am near.
Certain people,when they are busy,they are killing me,like arsenic,really.or maybe they are just like opiod to me,I am addicted.However, I do understand.They miss me too.Kikiki..(perasan)

Sincerely,
NAiNaH

Spring break!

It is spring break and it is very sunny.How niceeee~but i don't tan under then sun,i burn.lol.so,maybe it is the best to keep away from Sun~

Holiday is the best when you have super giant massive hectic week before and then a 2 weeks of not-doing-nothing~How nice.I can cook whatever I want,how long I want,how often I want.I can tidy up things,organize/redecorate my room with all the time I have.I can see the beach, soak under the sun, breath the spring scent.

It was lovely to watch the sun set down. Subhanallah, so beautiful.We even had picnic while watching the sunset. =D
We went to Hallet Cove beach (which I think it is the suburb called Seacliff, not really Hallet Cove)

Look at the new moon~subhanallah! The horizon,the night sky..all those experience really make it worth all the hard work of studying and practicing SPI. =P


The girls checking on the photos.


Sun said goodbye for the day~



Monday, September 10, 2012

You never fit in ! PART 1

I realize time passes by so so fast.It has been almost two years since I first step in this beautiful city of Adelaide.The city of churches.I called this city a mix of Kangar,Perlis,Malaysia and Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia. Peaceful yet so exciting.

I love uni and I wish I am in uni FOREVER (except I want to PASS,of course). maybe I just love the way the education system works here.Whoever design this type of education system are truly incredibly awesome people.

Well, my uni life is quite what I wanted, always my dream.I like it when there is no compulsory orientation.I hate orientation.In high school, they made us attended orientations every single year.Even in my senior year!Never mind,leave the horrible years behind and live the balance life to the fullest! Well, here there was actually orientation but mostly guides about locals and stuff and there's a trip (just pay some amount,and you get to enjoy yourself but i was busy searching for a house back then =P ).Orientation week that I knew before this was a pretty boring and dumb week.We got lock in a building or a room,listening  for ever-tiring motivational talk,get outside and play outdoors of what I hate.Well, different people prefer diff sorts of outdoor activities.It can be anything from gardening, bowling,swimming or hiking.Why narrow the space to just playing netball, basketball,etc.

Uni is much cooler when attendance to the lectures are not compulsory and lecture recordings are provided.It is not that I disregard the importance of a direct communication, but it actually teaches the students to be responsible of their job as a students.We are treated as adults.We made decisions and rules for ourselves.It's not a paternal relationship between lecturers and students.We are just like equal.We can voice out what we want and what we don't. We can change the way we were taught to which we prefer and like most.That is crazy when I first experience it. I remembered in high school when I was so outspoken and tried to change how I was taught. I guess most of my friends thought that I am so over the limit and not being a humble student.I thought they were right,but now I know what I did was just normal and right.It is just not the culture as they are in Adelaide,Australia. = )

to be continue..


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Inferiority Complex!

I can't write.So, I 'talk'.

It was weird when I was back in Malaysia last summer.I felt really weird.When people said, "Hey,you are one lucky girl to have a chance to study oversea!",I just responded,"Yeah..".But deep deep inside me I think I am no better than my friends who study locally.I miss a lot of experience.A lot of talent remain hidden and I remain normal,plain, geeky uni student.

Here,we couldn't even join a student association.Because those clubs always mean for PARTY and PUB CRAWL and BARBIE~fun,that's what they are at least 50% are about.

I feel so inferior when I met my friends who study 'Deeniyah'.ME?I couldn't even remember a single thing I learn  in school.I know things but I just can't 'merge' in it.My Arabic knowledge disappear in thin air!That is soooooo sad~

And me,again,feel so inferior with my friends who still wear 'tudung labuh' which I am not anymore.It is just not me,I hate faking myself.And I hate the fact that people in my home country are not as open-minded as Aussie(yeah,you guys are the best mate!).People still judge the book by its cover.>> I don't get it why I can't wear slack pants and t-shirt to Masjid.Why I have to speak so quietly in front of 'religious men' and speak normally with plain, normal guy in the street.I don't get it why we have to treat people differently.

I think I choose to be a 'not-so-religiously-dressed-girl'. But I am still covering my 'aurah. I remembered my religious teacher once said to me that it is so annoyingly sad to see girls wearing stylish hijab cause she said hijab is about covering not showing.Well,we have a different opinion here missy.So sorry.(secondary school is the second 'bad experience' period after INTEC..uni is the best =)
(don't get me wrong my high school mates ^^ )

Inferiority remain so complex again.With whole bunch of things going around,I'm just a plain girl who need to study hard to maintain the scholarship and getting a degree here.People said we are clever students?Wrong, we are not. We don't even care about what's going on in Malaysia(some ppl) .So what's the point being academically clever.But I still care though.Love you guys. ^^

p/s: I don't really make sense I know..lol

Note:
Barbie-barbecue
Party- dance to the music?I never went to any so I don't know.haha
Pub Crawl- going to club?clubbing?...maybe.haha

Friday, May 4, 2012

Eating Disorder

It has come to the time where everybody will eat and eat and eat.yeap!our part time job~when the locals were busy with their part time work as barista, cashier,pharmacy assistant, cook and baby sitter,we sit tight in our house with heater on on the colder night.We sit tight with our favourite laksa,tomyam or 'kanji' that we cook ourselves and STUDY!~

Yeap, the contract with JPA said that we must not work while study as we are paid to study~fine fine...and me, i did study for an hour or two until my back ache and i feel like eating AGAIN~though i'm full, i  wish i have bigger 'compartment' and rapid food absorption to eat again!

This is the story when tests and quizzes and assignments due strictly next week.I can be bloated to death as oppose of starve to death.So that I am aware that this is a good life but this life isn't permanent.This life isn't meant for this life!And this life is like a movie where it ended when it feels like it's just started.But the story of test and quiz is an episode where the ending is already determined.Known.but haven't being reveal.and yup>>>>>>>>>>i gotta continue studying ^^ cheers for reading my 'merepeking'  and see ya!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

What am I gonna do??

G'day~
Fuh,what a year!It has been almost a year,I suppose?Well readers,life is good here.How's yours?I am so proud to announce that this blog will come back to life,yeay~ (well,I hope it last long). By the way, I plan to write about Adelaide and starting to post my business entries in the upcoming days.(I am sooo excited!!)

I wanna show off some of the pictures taken with my HTC Desire HD which is soo awesome~lalala..i'm not so into photo capturing but this is way to cool when you snap a picture using mobile phone camera and it turns out to look like one of a DSLR quality..(i'm in high dose of self-esteem this morning) ^___^

Mount Lofty Botanical Garden ,Stirling,SA

Bottle brush tree in front of a house in Klemzig,South Australia.

Spring emerged.Leaves appeared.Blue sky at Mount Lofty Botanical Garden 

Car park?eheh..during late winter

This tree has turn over  new leaves ^^

Mount George jungle in the evening in winter

What am i capturing?lols

Love hiking without pacat.This is Australia forest!

in fern valley,mount lofty botanical garden.technique used:main blasah saje =D

beautiful bushes 

So blue



Magnolia~

All praise to Allah,so beautiful!!


Konon nk tunjuk kata besar sgt2 daun nie ^__^

This is sweet.Subhanallah~

Mcm lukisan!!

Suke gambar nie :))))

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Ghuraba'

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`


Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever
We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

The Prophet SAW said "Islam began as something strange, and it will return as something strange the way it began. So Tooba for the Strangers"

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`


Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever
We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

The Prophet SAW said "Islam began as something strange, and it will return as something strange the way it began. So Tooba for the Strangers"

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Matlamat x akan pernah menghalalkan cara

firstly, I apologize for posting this.I just feel that why not people give a think on it . p/s: bahasa rojak use the least ATP.i dun want to do more thinking. I hv test next week!

Lets put a simple fairytale example as an analogy to this topic.Have you heard the story about Robin Hood?Well, he is an Irish man living in 1300's and is well known for his aim of life (at least I think it is) of helping the poor.Noble man, I should say from what I know. But, he actually robbed from the rich to give it to the poor.Is he noble enough?So, this is it. Good aim never allow us to do bad things.It is just BAD.in mathematical formula:

good+bad = bad
(good)(bad) =bad

Only pure intention and ways will keep the aim pure.

In reality, as I step into university life, things are completely out of my expectation. I thought of having some kind of culture shock (in fact I did for some other reasons), but I'm not. The atmosphere is just awesome. They have got strong bond between each other and see each other as a  Muslim  brother and sister. A lot of nourishing biah which I am so lazy to explain. I once being ask by a senior, "Would you like to join Halaqah?". I was dumb struck. "Ea, normal ke tanya mcm nie?", I monologue.
Long while after that, similar question being asked to me again adding the words "...I know you have your own halaqah but just asking either you wanted to join ". I was like..'what is happening here??im clueless'.

Some basic things that I know are:
1. matlamat yang baik tidak akan menghalalkan cara.Pada saya, cukuplah andai Islam itu sudah disampaikan oleh orang lain kepada orang yang kita nk sampaikan. Walaupun cara berbeza, matlamat adalah sama! Kita patut rasa selesa dah gembira kerana kerja kita diteruskan olehnya.
Analogy: Seorang cikgu tengah mengajar seorang murid.Tiba-tiba datang seorang cikgu lain,nk mengajar benda yang sama kepada murid tersebut.Cikgu itu bertanya kepada murid tue, "nk x cg ajar?"
(i leave it tergantung here.so lazy)...

in a nutshell

Rebutlah keredhaan Allah. Keredhaan Allah bukan terletak kepada banyaknya pelajar yang belajar darinya tetapi keikhlasan menyampaikan ilmu walau sedikit.

2.refer 7 tahap da'wah fardiyah. marhalah 7 without marhalah 1-6 is crap!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Erm~

lots of things to think~semuanyer penting.ok nainah, satu2~

Saturday, December 25, 2010

turn to HIM

once fall, we turn to HIM..that is how gross we are. when we get the whole wide world, we never care who give us all the marvelous and fantastic worldly fun, happiness and contentment.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

i wish i can CAST this:

OBLIVIATE!!!!!!!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

tO Ones who understand ME

Knowing one at their worst so we can learn to accept each other at best
Knowing one at their best so they can inspire us and making us a better human being
improving and learning
To know is to have faith 
To give trust
To believe
To fill empty soul
with loves
To understand 
and see beyond what lies upon the naked eyes 
Friendship is not about 
being together
it is about seeing 
the same thing TOGETHER~



Sunday, November 14, 2010

Mood Swing~~~~

I was staring at a girl, a friend of mine. Why she act weird these days? When i started talking to her, she look so annoyed, seem like dont want to be disturb.and she started easily getting angry for small little thingy. Then, she said, after a few days to me, "Sori dude, i had PMS, bad one". i was blur~ (fictional story from a GUY point of view )

Lols, things turn upside down when i try to practice the PMS thingy.

ME: mom, i feel like i wanna eat everyone in this house
MOM: why, is the food not enough for u? 

another situation which i dont really remember well..

MOM: dont sulk for such tiny things~
ME: I feel like crying....*cry*

Then i stumble upon an article about PMS.From that day onwards, i feel like i had an explanation for what happen to my mood.Then, I said to mom," Mum, sorry if i uncontrollably become mad or do stupid things which u annoyed so much.I feel annoyed too.but, i cannot control cause it was PMS."
MOM: * org Islam xde nyer pakai teori barat tuh, iman je yg control tindakan kita*  

something like this lah~haha....true blue

(haha....why i write these things for the very 1st place~)


Thursday, October 21, 2010

Only PURE hearts can touch others~

Bismillah..
Updates:
1. 10 days before SACE
2. madly crazily obsess with Open Your Eyes song by Maher Zain

jUst Some ThouGhts >>>>>>>

i was thinking why i am so crazy with the MZ songs.Why? i listened to Sami Yusuf, Dawud WhansbyYusuf Islam, Zain Bikha, etc but i never/rarely have this strong feeling  (feeling more closer to Allah, feeling of renewal..). Yup, Al- mu'alim by Sami Yusuf made us love Rasulullah even more, People in the Boxes by Dawud Whansby Ali do open a new perspective of live, You are never alone by Zain Bikha is the best ever coz of it DEEP meaning but but but....Maher Zain's Open Your Eyes, Insya Allah, Ya Nabi Salam 'Alaik, Always Be There songs ( and more) are super touching and super assuring and super COOL~ no, i dont think because of his sweet voice or what..Coz Sami Yusuf voice is even more 'cair'  err, 'sedap'~

But , as I discovered his journey from a famous non-islamic composer to an Islamic singer, the story beyond it does tell everything~ His songs reflects his heart, his pure objectiv which is to spread the words of Allah, InsyaAllah, Subhanallah, Allahuakbar to every home (Maher Zain, 15 October 2010)...make it be played in every home!!!

Conclusion: The words are simple, cliché ..but only pure hearts can touch other hearts. 

"Kawan yang paling baik adalah apabila kita melihatnya(atau teringatkannya) dia mengingatkan kita pada Allah dan menyentuh hati kita" (miss my friend....)